Lilypie 1st Birthday Ticker Keeping up with my brain: 03/01/2005 - 04/01/2005

Tuesday, March 29, 2005

CD 2

CD 2 is already compleate. Here are the contents:

Broken - Tracy Chapman (2/5)
Weight of Love - Leann Rimes (2/6)
Everything - Fefe Dobson (2/19)
Landing in London - 3 Doors Down (2/20)
Broken - Seether feat Amy Lee (2/26)
Misery - Pink feat Steven Tyler (2/27)
Reasons Why - Nickle Creek (3/2)
Zoe Jane - Staind (3/3)
Pardon Me- Incubus (3/5)
Beauty - Shaye (3/8)
Gravity - A Perfect Circle (3/10)
True- Ryan Cabrera (3/11)
Overcome - Live (3/18)
Somebody - Reba McIntyre (3/20)
Antes - Obie Bermudez (3-22)
Crazy - KCI & Jojo (3/26)
Red Light - Jonny Lang (3/27)

Monday, March 28, 2005

Song in My Head 3/28

You Had Me ---- JOSS STONE

You had me
You lost me
You're wasted
You cost me
I don't want you here messing with my mind

Spitting in my eyes and I still see
Tried to keep me down
I'm breaking free
I don't want no part in your next fix
Someone needs to tell you this is it

Hey listen you'll be missin'
Out on all my love and my kissing
Make your mistakes on your own time
When you come down you're just no good to have around
Instead of making money you took mine

[Chorus]
You had me
You lost me
You're wasted
You cost me
I don't want you here messing with my mind
I've realized in time
that my eyes are not blind
I've seen it before
I'm taking back my life

You tried to trade on my naivete
But the things you do and say embarrass me
See once upon a time I was your fool
But the one I leave behind is you

Hey listen you'll be missin'
Out on all my love and my kissing
Make your mistakes on your own time
When you come down you're just no good to have around
Instead of making money you took mine

[Chorus]

Vodka and a packet of cigarettes
That's all it used to be but now
You're sniffing on snow when you're feeling low
Suffocating dreams that could have been
Maybe for a minute I was down with that
But it didn't take long for me to see the light
You swore you had control of it
But when I stepped back you slipped on your supply

[Chorus]

Taking it back I'm taking it back
Taking back my life
Taking it back I'm taking it back
Taking back my life
Ain't nobody got no business stressing all the time
Taking it back I'm taking it back
Taking back my life

[Chorus]

Taking it back I'm taking it back
Taking back my life
Taking it back I'm taking it back
Taking back my life
Ain't nobody got no business stressing all the time
Taking it back I'm taking it back
Taking back my life

Sunday, March 27, 2005

Song in My Head 3/27

Red Light - Jonny Lang

You sing a song

While sitting at a red light
You think of home
While sitting at a red light
Too slow to roll
Put your life on hold
An open path
With nowhere to go
You start to wonder
While sitting at a red light

You can run a red light

Give up at a red light
You break the mold
When running through the tolls
Speeding through your whole life

A chance to breathe

While sitting at a red light
You look around
Reflecting on your life
A chance to think
Am I drinking too much
Should I keep going
Lose the life that I love
A second glance
When coming to a red light

You can run a red light

Give up at a red light
You break the mold
When running through the tolls
Speeding through your whole life
You can run a red light
Give up on your whole life
You break the mold
When you're running through the tolls
Speeding through your whole life

When things look low

You've gotta keep strong
Feet to the grass
You've gotta walk it off
THe bow's been tied
Too tight to laugh
Feet to the ground
You've gotta walk it off

You can run a red light

You can run a red light

Start to think

Am I drinking too much
SHould I keep going
Lose the life that I love
You can run a red light
Give up at a red light
You break the mold
When running through the tolls
Speeding through your whole life

You can run a red light

Give up on your whole life
You break the mold
When running through the tolls
Speeding through your whole life
You can run a red light
You can run a red light

You sing a song

While sitting at a red light

Saturday, March 26, 2005

Song in My Head 3/26

Crazy - Kci & Jojo

Baby, I, apologize
for all the things that I've done
that I've done
see, I know, that I've been a fool
for far too long
baby you don't have to, go and run away
just come back to poppa
please, baby baby, won't you stay
if you really love me,
then why are you leaving me?

I can't think, think about this crazy day
I lose sleep, just daydreamin about you baby
I'm goin crazy crazy crazy just thinkin about you lately
(crazy, baby)
I'm goin crazy crazy crazy just thinkin about you, baby
(I don't know what to do no more)
I'm goin crazy crazy crazy crazy thinkin about you lately
(crazy, crazy, crazy yeah)
I'm goin crazy crazy (crazy crazy), when I can't touch you
crazy crazy (I'm goin crazy), when I can't hold you
crazy crazy (I'm goin crazy), when I can't see you again
(said I'm goin crazy, baby baby baby baby baby)
said I'm going crazy

I finally realized
that you are my true love
and I had a lot of time to think
and you're all I seem to keep think, to keep thinkin of
and now I know I need you
each and every day
I can't live without you
so don't run away
baby, you said that you loved me
so why are you leaving me? (why why why why why)

I can't think, think about this crazy day
(why are you leaving me)
I lose sleep, just day dreamin about you baby (I'm goin crazy)
I'm goin crazy crazy crazy just thinkin about you lately

(just to think)
I'm goin crazy crazy crazy just thinkin about you, baby
(I'm goin crazy, I'm going crazy)
I'm goin crazy crazy crazy crazy thinkin about you lately
I'm goin crazy crazy (crazy crazy), when I can't touch you
crazy crazy (I'm goin crazy crazy), when I can't hold you
crazy crazy (I'm goin crazy), when I can't see you again

If I can see you, I can see you
If I can see you,
If I can see you,
If I can see you,
If I can see you,
IF I can see you again, then I will go
If I can see you again, I would go crazy

Thursday, March 24, 2005

Ziggy!

Ziggy is my little baby boy! My kitty!
When I was little I always wanted a cat. And finally when I was 19 I got my kitty.

Andy and I had moved into an apartment together and I begged him that all I wanted was a cat.
December 1, 2001 Andy comes home from work with a shiny silver bag. "Open it!" he said, "It is an early Christmas Present. It was a small bag of cat treats. At first I was thinking 'Ha ha very funny' and I was very tiered and had just gotten off work late. Then he told me that the rest of my present was in his car and I had to come help him get it. Impatiently I asked him if it was a cat. And when I saw the box in the back seat I got excited. Obviously it was a cat. I brought the box inside and set it on the couch and peaked inside the top of the box and saw two little eyes and heard a meow. I opened the box and said "hello baby" and he was so happy to see me.

A guy Andy knew from work found Ziggy at a house in a bucket with a lid on top. No one knows how long he was in there but it was easy to tell he had been there for a while. The guy took him home and bathed him and let Andy take him home to me. The poor little guy. He is almost 4 years old now and he is still often times afraid of people.... I don't blame him. But for the most part he is not so scared. I was lucky that he loved me right away and he is luck to have a home with me. Ziggy has such a silly personality and that help makes him so lovable.

Tuesday, March 22, 2005

Fridge in the Middle of I-25

Last week Andy and I were picking up my brother Michael so he could stay with us for a few days.
We were driving on I-25 and the was a fridge in the middle of the left lane! I am not kidding. It had just fallen off the truck minutes before we got there. Good thing Andy was driving because I would have hit the fridge. AHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!

Song in My Head 3/22

Antes by Obie Bermúdez - English translation

Jamas imaginé que llegaría este día
I never though that this day would come,
Donde apostaría yo toda mi vida,
Where I would bet all my life,
Por amarte y por hablarte otra vez,
For loving you and talking to you again,
Pero que diablos ya perdí todo mi tiempo,
But what the hell, I've lost all my time,
Y por mis errores ahora estoy sufriendo,
And for my errors now I'm suffering,
Quisiera regresar.
I'd like to go back.
----Pre Chorus----
Pero antes de andar, y salir de tu vida,
But before leaving, and getting out of your life,
Y andar solo, ay, quisiera llorar,
And be alone, ay, I'd like to cry,
Y sacarme de adentro tus besos tu cuerpo,
And get out of me your kisses, your body,
----Chorus----
Antes de olvidar, quisiera llorarte una vez más y soñarte.
Before forgetting, I'd like to cry for you one more time, and dream of you.
Antes del libro cerrar, quisiera contarte que no me gusto su final.
Before closing the book, I'd like to tell you, that I didn't like its end.
Antes...
Before...
Jamas imaginé que llegaría a perderte,

I never thought that I would lose you,
Llegué a sentirme tan seguro de tenerte,
I came to feel so sure of having you,
Pero ves mi vida que no fué así,
But you see my love, it wasn't that way,
Pero que diablos ya perdí todo mi tiempo,
But what the hell I've lost all my time,
Y por mis errores ahora estoy sufriendo,
And for my errors now I'm suffering,
Quisiera regresar.
I'd like to go back.

Sunday, March 20, 2005

Song in My Head 3/20

Somebody ---- Reba McIntyre
At a diner down on Broadway, they make small talk,
When she brings his eggs and fills his coffee cup.
He jokes about his love life,
And tells her he's 'bout ready to give up.
That's when she says:"I've been there before.
But keep on lookin',
'Cause maybe who you're lookin' for is...."

    "Somebody in the next car; somebody on the morning train;
    "Somebody in the coffee shop that you walk right by every day.
    "Somebody that you look at, but never really see.
    "Somewhere out there is somebody."

Across town in a crowded elevator,
He can't forget the things that waitress said.
He usually reads the paper,
But today he reads a stranger's face instead.
It's that blue-eyed girl from two floors up;
Maybe she's the one.
Maybe he could fall in love with....

    Somebody in the next car; somebody on the morning train;
    Somebody in the coffee shop that you walk right by every day.
    Somebody that you look at, but never really see.
    Somewhere out there is somebody.

Instrumental break.


Now they laugh about the moment that it happened.
A moment they'd both missed until that day.
When he saw his future in her eyes,
Instead of just another friendly face.
And he wonders why he searched so long,
When she was always there,
At that diner waiting on...

    Somebody in the next car; somebody on the morning train;
    Somebody in the coffee shop that you walk right by every day.
    Somebody that you look at, but never really see.
    Somewhere out there.
    Oh, somewhere out there is somebody.



Friday, March 18, 2005

the songs on cd one

1. Weak and Powerless - A Perfect Circle (11/30)
2. Where is Your Heart - Kelly Clarkson (12/1)
3. Behind These Hazel Eyes - Kelly Clarkson (12/1)
4. Hear Me - Kelly Clarkson (12/2)
5. Most of All- Fuel (12/7)
6. Inevitable - Shakira (12/13)
7. Over and Over - Nelly Feat Tim McGraw (12/21)
8. Slipped Away - Avril Lavinge (12/26)
9. Break Away - Kelly Clarkson (12/27)
10. Echo - Trapt (1/6)
11. In My Daughter's Eyes - Martina McBride (1/11) - on coment from Mom
12. I Hate Myself for Losing You - Kelly Clarkson (1/19)
13. I'm Never Gonna Leave Your Side - Daniel Bedingfield (1/15)
14. Still - Brian McKnight (1/28)
15. Hotel Paper - Michelle Branch (1/29)
16. Let Me Go - 3 Doors Down (1/29)
17. November - Emerson Drive (1/30)
18. Let Her Feel the Rain - Tara MacLean (1/31)

Song in My Head 3/18

Overcome - Live
even now the world is bleedin' but feelin' just fine all numb 
in our castle where we're always free to choose never free
enough
to find i wish somethin' would break cuz we're runnin' out of
time

and i am overcome i am overcome holy water in my lungs i am
overcome

these women in the street pullin' out their hair my master's
in the yard givin' light to the unaware this plastic little
place
is just a step amongst the stairs

and i am overcome i am overcome baby holy water in my lungs i am
overcome

so drive me out out to that open field turn the ignition off
and spin around your help is here but i'm parked in this open
space
blockin' the gates of love

i am overcome i am overcome holy water in my lungs i am
overcomed

beautiful drowning this beautiful drowning this holy water
this holy water is in my lungs

and i am overcome i am overcome i am overcome i am overcome

Monday, March 14, 2005

Happy Late B-day to Myself!!!!!!

Over all I had a pretty good b-day. Thursday I went out with Mary and her family. Friday I did homework. Saturday, my b-day:

I had to work all morning but I got surprised by my mom and John at my work right when I was ready to get off work. It was an awesome surprise. Then Andy came and picked me up. Around 7:00 I my mother-in-law Patti took me out for dinner. Then later that night my friend Sam took me out dancing. First a club called "The Church" and then a club called "vinyl" and then another club called something and now I can't remember. It was a lot of fun.

But now that the fun is all over I have tons of homework and now have a cold.

Love you all
Shawna

---- People need to see that, far from being an obstacle the world's diversity of languages, religions and traditions is a great treasure, offering us precious opportunities to recognize ourselves in others. --- Youssou N'Douv

Friday, March 11, 2005

Song in My Head 3/11

True--- Ryan Cabrera
I won't talk
I won't breathe
I won't move till you finally see
That you belong with me

You might think I don't look
But deep inside the corner of my mind
I'm attatched to you
mmmm

I'm weak, it's true
Cause I'm afraid to know the answer
Do you want me too?
Cause my heart keeps falling faster

[chorus]
I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing that's true
So I will not hide
It's time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true

You don't know what you do
Everytime you walk into the room
I'm afraid to move

I'm weak, it's true
I'm just scared to know the ending
Do you see me too?
Do you even know you met me?

[Chorus]
I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
It's time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true

I know when I go
I'll be on my way to you
The way that's true

[chorus]
I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
It's time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true

Thursday, March 10, 2005

Song in My Head 3/10

"Gravity" --- A Perfect Circle

Lost again
Broken and weary
Unable to find my way
Tail in hand
Dizzy and clearly unable to
Just let this go

I am surrendering to the gravity and the unknown
Catch me heal me lift me back up to the sun
I choose to live

I fell again
Like a baby unable to stand on my own
Tail in hand
Dizzy and clearly unable to just let this go
High and surrendering to the gravity and the unknown
Catch me heal me lift me back up to the sun
I choose to live, I choose to live, I choose to live

Catch me heal me lift me back up to the sun
Help me survive the bottom

Calm these hands before they
Snare another pill and
Drive another nail down another
Needy hole please release me

I am surrendering to the gravity and the unknown
Catch me heal me lift me back up to the sun
I choose to live, I choose to live

Funny Horoscopes From 'The Onion'

These Horoscopes are from the news paper called 'The Onion'. Do not take them seriously and please have a sense of humor... The writers and myself personally do not mean to offend anyone.

Aries (March 21-April 19) :
You'll have an identity crisis when you find out your life is just another Internet rumor.

Taurus (April 20 - May 20):

When the aliens finally initiate relations, you'll be surprised to find their mysterious handbook is, when translated, actually a drink-mixing guide.

Gemini (May 21-June 21):
You always wondered which of your sins would send you to hell, but you never thought it would be tipping Roger $ on a $60 check.

Cancer (June 22 - July 22):
You're not excusing your own ignorance in the matter, but the Museum of Modern Art should've announced that the fur-lined teacup was not for drinking.

Leo (July 23 - August 22):
Your contribution to the performing arts is limited to the fact that your mamma is so fat almost anything can be said about her.

Virgo (August 23 - September 22):
You'll somehow manage to lose your lucky glass vial of smallpox culture in the subway, but that's okay---- you've got a 10-gallon cooler of the stuff in your basement.

Libra (September 23 - October 23):
You have no idea why thousands of shrieking, lovesick teens chase you everywhere you go, but you're pretty sure it's not because of your shitty albums.
Scorpio ( October 24- November 21): After nine long hours, fried-chicken company executives will finally find a monetary figure that convinces you to leave the taste test.

Sagittarius (November 22- December 21): It's true that we live in a disposable culture, but that's no reason to wad men up into little balls and throw them into the trash when not using them.

Capricorn (December 22 - January 19):
Your life will take a horrible turn, due to your inability to tell how old girls are and where the cameras are hidden.

Aquarius (January 20 - February 18):
Unfortunately, the rain will arrive at the precise moment when you're about to answer the age-old question of whether fire is man's friend or foe.

Pisces (February 19- March 20):
For 15 terrifying minutes, the universe does indeed revolve around you, causing the death of billions because you decide to skip rope.








Wednesday, March 09, 2005

Mac & Cheese

In three days I am going to 23 years old and right now I am making Mac & Cheese for lunch (ya know the one from the box). Sponge Bob shaped ( I don't know why but I think it tastes better)

Kraft Mac & Cheese is the first thing I cooked on my own. At one point I got really sick of eating the stuff but now I keep a few boxes around for when that weird craving takes over and it does.... that and taco bell (that I think is really gross unless I am craving it)

Well I guess I can go finish making my Sponge Bob Mac.

Love Shawna

Tuesday, March 08, 2005

Song in My Head 3/8

Beauty===== Shaye www.taramaclean.com shayemusic.com

So you've come to this bridge

In an unfamiliar land
You know it's a bridge you are going to walk on
And the only thing you know is
Everything you know
Will do you no good from here on

And the day that you spin
From your little cocoon
Well, you can't be prepared
For the beauty you'll find there
And you will find beauty
In the toughest of places
And I will be thinking of you out there

So pick up your bags
Look around at your friends
And you know none of them
Would ever have enough strength
To cross the bridge and lose control
I never felt this bold
Never felt this good

And the day that you spin
From your little cocoon
Well, you can't be prepared
For the beauty you'll find there
And you will find beauty
In the toughest of places
And I will be thinking of you

Stay true to your nomad skies
Keep your eyes out for coyote
A thousand secrets are lost
In the archival dust
So lay your ears upon the tracks

One day you will come back
With wrinkled hands and grey hair
And there you will stand on the spot
And you'll marvel how the place is still the same
Though you are somebody else now
Fly on butterfly

And the day that you spin
From your little cocoon
Well, you can't be prepared
For the beauty you'll find there
And you will find beauty
In the toughest of places
And I will be thinking of you out there

Monday, March 07, 2005

No Strikey-Wikey

So King Soopers voted to settle on the contract that means no strike... I personally don't know if it is s good thing or a bad thing but many people agree that the contract sucks and wonder who in the hell voted for it.
It is a good thing for me that we are not on strike because like I have one more thing I need to worry about.

Saturday, March 05, 2005

Ok Carol I Am Ready To Cuss In The Booth

First: 1 week until my birthday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Second: King Soopers is driving me crazy....... I do like my new store but my schedule sucks.

I was told that the booth (the place where the safe is) is a place you can let it ALL out cuss and say whatever you want without it ever leaving the room. They have been joking with me because I don't cuss unless I feel comfortable around people. But after I saw my schedule I said to my manager Carol, "Ok Carol I am ready to cuss in the both!"

Next week is when I get my 5 1/2 years of seniority back and it was the worst schedule ever. Sunday(tomorrow) I work 7am-3:30pm. That is a good shift but I was scheduled to get off at midnight tonight. Carol said she would let me go home at 10. On my b-day I also work 7- 3:30 but that is ok. Then the nights I have school the next day I work 5:30 - midnight again. And the two week days I have almost free Thursday and Friday I have off. But the off days are ok because maybe people want to do stuff for my b-day.

Well have to go do home work

Love Shawna

P.S. Blog CD 1 is finished

Song in My Head 3/5

Pardon Me ----- Incubus (apropriate for my b-day next week)


Pardon me while I burst.....

A decade ago, I never thought I would be,
At twenty three, on the verge of
spontaneous combustion. Woe-is-me. But I
guess that it comes with the territory; an
ominous landscape of
never ending calamity
I need you to hear, I need you to see that I have
had all I can take and
exploding seems like a definite possibility
to me.
So pardon me while I burst into flames.
I've had enough of the world, and its people's mindless games.
So pardon me while I burn and rise above the flame.
Pardon me, Pardon me...Don't ever be the same.

Not two days ago, I was having a look in a book and I saw a picture of a
guy
fried up above his knees
I said, "I can relate," cause' lately I've been thinking of combustication
as a welcomed vacation from
the burdens of the planet earth.
Like gravity hypocrisy and the perils of being in 3-D...
and thinking so much differently.
Pardon me while I burst into flames.
I've had enough of the world and its people's mindless games.
So pardon me while I burn and rise above the flame.
Pardon me, Pardon me...Don't ever be the same.

Pardon me while I burst into flames.
Pardon me, Pardon me, Pardon me.

So pardon me while I burst into flames.
I've had enough of the world and its people's mindless games.
So pardon me while I burn and rise above the flame.
Pardon me, Pardon me... Don't ever be the same.

Thursday, March 03, 2005

Song in My Head 3/3

Zoe Jane --- Staind

Well I want you to notice
To notice when I'm not around
I know your eyes see straight through me
And speak to me without a sound

And I want to hold you
Protect you from all the things I've already endured
And I want to show you
To show you all of the things that this life has in store for you
I'll always love you
The way a father sould love his daughter

When I walked out this morning
I cried as I walked to the door
I cried about how long I'd be away
I cried about leaving you alone

And I want to hold you
Protect you from all the things I've already endured
And I want to show you
To show you all of the things that this life has in store for you
I'll always love you
The way a father sould love his daughter

Sweet Zoe Jane
Sweet Zoe Jane

So I wanted to say this
'cause I wouldn't know where to begin
To explain to you what I have been through
To explain where your daddy has been

And I want to hold you
Protect you from all the things I've already endured
And I want to show you
To show you all of the things that this life has in store for you
I'll always love you
The way a father sould love his daughter

Sweet Zoe Jane
Sweet Zoe Jane

Wednesday, March 02, 2005

Song in My Head 3/2/05

"Reasons Why" ---- Nickel Creek

Where am I today? I wish that I knew
'Cause looking around there's no sign of you
I don't remember one jump or one leap
Just quiet steps away from your lead

I'm holding my heart out but clutching it too
Feeling this short of a love that we once knew
I'm calling this home when it's not even close
Playing the role with nerves left exposed

Standing on a darkened stage, stumbling through the lines
Others have excuses, but I have my reasons why

We get distracted by dreams of our own
But nobody's happy while feeling alone
And knowing how hard it hurts when we fall
We lean another ladder against the wrong wall

And climb high to the highest rung, to shake fists at the sky
While others have excuses, I have my reasons why

[Bridge:]
With so much deception it's hard not to wander away
It's hard not to wander away
It's hard not to wander away

Busy

Hi everyone. Sorry I have been really busy and have not had time to call some of you back that have called me. I still don't have my senority back at work and have been stuck working 5:30pm to 12:00am. On top of that this week they gave me 30hrs (too much) and I have had a ton of school work and tons more to come.

I still have not made the Song in My Head CD yet but I do have another one called "& Feat." I would only recomend it for those who like RAP and don't mind cussing. It is a mixed CD that has a link between artist ex. song 1) D feat. F 2) F and G 3) G feat C and D and Y 4) Y feat Q and..... so on

Well I need to get going and also write the song in my head

Love Shawna

Tuesday, March 01, 2005

Birthday Countdown

My birthday is in 10 days (not counting today or my birthday) and I will be 23.

I never know what I want for my birthday. This year I tried to think about it and came up with a few things: There is a turtle necklace at a store near my house, a few charms for my bracelet, and I also want to get my palm read or have a tarot card reading. I was thinking about getting a tattoo but I am still researching exactly what I want.... Andy thinks that is a stupid idea.

I was going to do something with all of my friends for my birthday but it is on a Saturday so I might have to plan stuff for a later day. Also I didn't realize how soon it was so I don't have all the plans together.

Love Shawna